[“Moreover, I know that you do not have the love of God in you.“] (Jn. 5: 42)
Ugh... well that’s quite an indictment. In our Gospel today Jesus differentiates between human and divine testimony. He doesn’t accept human testimony, but God’s. Seemingly out of the blue this verse appears on the lips of Jesus amidst His discussion.
“Moreover, I know that you do not have the love of God in you.“
This verse catches us off guard, and it convicts us. (well it convicts me at least). God is always speaking, desperately trying to get our attention. He seeks us out, and we many times are oblivious. Yet, there are times in which He breaks through like the sun peaking through the clouds. This can happen at anytime, anywhere, and through anything or anyone. Jesus’s words remind me of something St. John says in his first letter:
Do not love the world or the things of the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. (1Jn. 2:15)
When we become aware of God convicting us of our sins or bad habits we must remember that He convicts us not to make us feel awful about ourselves. God convicts us so that we may grow in holiness. Loving the world and the things of the world is not bad in and of itself, since God created the world and all it contains. However loving them above and before God is.
Jesus prompts us to reflect on and honestly ask purselves, “Is God the first priority in my life? Do I love other things more than Him? What must be readjusted in my life so that God truly is the center of my life?”